Crossroads

Been a while since my last post. I've been more frequent on Twitter. It gives you a chance to express your thoughts as they flash in your brain. You can connect to so many people coming from different backgrounds and who hold all kinds of views. It is interesting and confusing at the sametime.

Having said that their are some thoughts hovering in my mind that cannot be expressed in the micro blog and maybe they are best discussed with people who know what I'm talking about. Its been a battle of thoughts inside me on various issues related to politics, life and so many more things.

If you look at it, life is not as complex as it appears on these social networking sites. It's pretty simple to live a principled life and be nice to the people who matter. At the same time being connected to the bigger social responsibilities by helping those who you can and staying content with what you have. Ofcourse, it doesn't mean you should not have ambitions or higher goals. It takes efforts and sacrifices in pursuing these goals.

Generally, social network is a great tool to reach out to the people who matter and stay connected with some very nice people and some vain souls as well. If you know where you want to reach and it compliments your journey, great. But if it is confusing you, better to place take it light. Ramblings of other confused souls should not confuse you further.

In my mind, it is best to stay real and positive about things that affect you but aware about as many things.

As far as my life is concerned, I'm at crossroads on the career front. There are some changes expected and there are some blind corners. I'm hoping for the best things to happen but I need to keep my tools sharp and ready to accept and grab the opportunities that come along. The transition phase in career is full of anxiety but has given me time to spend with my family. It is fun to see your little kid do new things everyday. I'd like to thank God almighty for these precious moments. About the anxious moments related to my career it is time for patience and perseverance.

While all this is happening, I intend to spend enough time in working on my fitness/health. Maybe swim more regularly and play some sport. And not to forget spiritual growth. Need to reach out to the God's word and he will reach out to me. There are so many things to do. Time is limited but its all about using the limited resources and maximize the output for yourself in this world and next.

Milestones...

I'm waiting in my office parking lot trying to put my thoughts in words. The thoughts are just so many I start then get confused. Perhaps thats the reason Im not blogging that often. Or perhaps is it because Ive been that busy? I think its all inter related. Everybody needs a bit of monotony and a bit of veriety to make the life fun.

Talking about monotony. It could not be worse. Ive been travelling 50kms daily in peek Bangalore traffic for work. It eats up almost 3 hours daily travelling. I feel Best way to make this travel time fun I feel is to tweet. Its just that even tweeting becomes after a point. Its the best way one can put his thoughts to words in a short timeframe and perhaps by reading some of the tweets,develop a sence of connection with other tweeple. It is interesting not more than a tool to kill time.

Talking about variety,Each day of my life has been unique in the last one year. Yes its been a year exactly since God almighty gifted me with my lovely daughter Zunaira. As I stand at this milestone I think where am I headed. Along with the joy of fatherhood there is also a sense of responsibility. The urge to see my family happy. As Ive got busy with my family, Ive also lost contact with some of my friends. I look forward to meeting them more often. Last year has been pretty slow in terms of work as well. The project Im working has reached a stage where things get done with minimum effort. Only effort I make is getting to office and back home. Life has been easy and challenging in parts. And God has been kind in most regards. Though, there is no reason to complain there is something missing. In those days we chased milestones such as  good score in the board exams or a place in the school cricket team. After a point it just a day to day life with not many goals.

As Zuni reaches the milestone of being a year old I also am staring at the milestone of my 30th birthday. Though birthdays don't mean a lot to me I want to set few goals on a personal, professional and spiritual level.

Personally I would love to spend more quality time with family. Take a vacation atleast once every 3 months. Ive been working hard to regain my lost fitness before my 30th birthday. Though Ive been swimming and doing some other stuff, results have not quite shown. I need a result oriented approach in all spheres.

On the professional front as well, neex to get back the result oriented and 'Can Do' attitude. Its very easy to lose sight of your goals when life becomes too easy. Whats needed in such a situation is a child like enthusiasm in all spheres.

On the spiritual level, I need to have more emphasis on connecting to my creator with a greater commitment. Add meaning to daily rituals and become a better person as a result. Though I look at life pretty positively it is important to remind oneself about the purpose of ones existance.

I would love to work on making myself and my blog more presentable. I'd would love to arrange and express my thoughts better. It would certainly help me be successful at all spheres.

Last but not the least work towards being more result oriented. Look at life with passion and make things happen. Looking forward to revisit my thoughts and keep updating my blog with the milestones of life as I reach them and enjoy the journey as much as reaching the milestones.

Galaxy Note art

Does he look like Me?

Latest obsession

Last few night I got myself a new tablet/smart phone. Since then, I'm trying to post some picture I drew on this new gadget. Though I'm ableo write on my blog, I'm finding it pretty hard to import some images I made to post. Its really frustrating to not be able to complete what you set off to do. Still trying really hard to get my art on the blog. Though this exercise seams futile, maybe I've started to rediscover what it means to strive to achieve an Past few months have been really easy for me at work. So much so that I've just lost the art and science of striving. This futile exercise has made me reflect at the times when I achieved best results. Most of the times skills are best utilised when there is passion. Without passion many potential legends live ordinary lives and with passion many ordinary guys end up being legends. Perhaps these thoughts . in the middle of the night were needed to get me back on my toes. Hopefully this eureka moment will translate to some action. Hope to update some action in posts that follow.

Sooo Loong

Its been a while since my last entry. Life has been a bit hectic still seams like not much has happened. It is a phase typical to a parent of an infant.

Last 4 or 5 months have been centered around my daughter Zuni. Everyday with her has been special and every new thing she does is memorable. I try to capture as much as I can in my camera, rest is in my memory.

Last week Ruqu, Zuni and I had a small getaway to Pondicherry. It was an ideal getaway for 3 days. Mostly relaxed, swam and checked out the beach. Zuni was really excited to see the water come at her whenever we went to the beach. Though she does not understand whats really happening. Overall it was her first vacation and it was memorable for Ruqu as she had to enjoy and take care of Zuni at the same time.

For me it was an interesting drive. 80% of the road is amazing. 20% of the road is a nightmare. The stretch between Krishnagiri and Thiruvannamalai is very bumpy. Especially when there is a little baby crying, I would not recomend anyone to take that route.

Now that Ruqu and Zuni have gone to Hyderabad for few days, life is going slow. With Zuni, I hardly find any freetime. Time just passes playing with her. I don't feel like doing anything else that talk to her. Last week has gone much slower than my last month. Hopefully next few days will fly and I will make use of this opportunity to finish some of the pending tasks that I could not when she was around.

Work wise, life is going pretty slow. Not much happening at work but lots in store. Looking forward to the interesting days ahead.

Personally, I am going through a phase when I am trying to learn as much as possible about different spheres of life through staying in touch with some smart bloggers, tweeters etc. But I now feel that is not an ideal way to learn anything. It only helps one get aware about the events happening around. Learning is not that easy. One needs to go through the authentic sources of information available.

Everything combined, my life has been very static over the last year or so. Everything has got a bit repetative. I am looking some drastic changes professionally. I am really waiting to go out of my comfort zone. I feel the change is round the corner.

The High's and Low's

Last few weeks have been very sad for a fan of the Indian cricket team. Team India has gone through one of its worst phases in more than a decade. A number of reasons could be attributed for this dismal show. Most prominent being the hectic schedule planned by the BCCI. BCCI has treated the cricketers like the 'Golden eggs laying Goose'. Everything has been done to kill the Goose.

Main driving force behind such planning is that BCCI is filled with industrialists, politicians, etc. in key positions. Though their organizational and management skills have helped promoting and acquiring required infrastructure for the game, they have put the cart before the horse by making cricket a pure business.

Dhoni, the captain cool has looked clueless while all his henchmen are getting injured. Most probably, the current tour of England has witnessed the biggest team India squad ever for a single tour. Life can really be hard sometimes.

All said and done, I think the Indian cricketers, fans and BCCI should look at this as a lesson. A new start with the premise that 'Resting on laurels is not the way forward'. We need to prioritise quality of cricket over the financial gains. If quality of cricket is compromised, we stand to lose in the long run.

Take a leaf of Stuart Broad's book. He was hammered for 6 6's in an over in the T20 WC of 2007. He has come a long way since. No matter where we stand we can always bounce back. Just that we need to be honest with ourself and be realistic but ambitious. We have the ability but that alone is not enough. Planning and efforts in the right direction are very important.

I am sure, not just the Team India but everybody will go through a slump. The slump is not "The End". We need to take a lessons from our yesterday and live to fight again tomorrow. A fighting/sportive spirit is a prerequisite to victory.

Eid Mubarak

The holy month of Ramadan has just finished and it has been a really good month. Especially since the work load at work place was fairly relaxed, I could give more time to reading the Quran with understanding. And I must say if you put your mind to it, it is not difficult at all. Another positive being I could get my life a bit more disciplined. However, some effort is needed to continue with the momentum.

Most important part is that, this is my first Eid with my daughter Zunaira. She has been such a big change in both Ruqu's and my life. It has been truly an amazing experience to witness and infant grow day by day. She is 4 months old now and a complete bundle of joy. Though she keeps us on our toes, she makes sure that the day is filled with extremely happy moments.

I had a good break from the monotony of work for the last 5 days and Feel extremely lazy to get started again. Still have to get started and maybe plan a vacation sometime next month with Zunu and Ruqu. Bye till then.